uninterested in what you are saying.

so i find myself more and more uninterested in the things people talk about. before you call me a self-absorbed jerk, hear me out. say we find ourselves in a room full of hmm just to make it easy lets say 10 people. it is you, me, and another 10. if we went around and both talked to everyone for 5-10 minutes each, what would we come away with? would we be better off? would you have learned anything from that other person? PROBABLY NOT. you would talk about school and the weather and jobs. that sort of thing. i'm not saying those things aren't important... okay actually i AM saying those things are not important because in the grand scheme of things, WHO CARES? AND WHO REMEMBERS THAT STUFF? come back a week later and you'll have all their schools and jobs messed up and intertwined. (if it was me i'd probably have their names pretty messed up too).. so you see.. i'm VERY uninterested in what people talk about these days.. i am EXTREMELY interested in what everyone is NOT saying!! get it?

i am DONE talking about nothing. aren't you tired of it? you do it to. i know you. stop asking the wrong questions. start asking the right ones. what are the right ones? well that i can't really give away. its top secret. but on the real - are we more concerned about someones job or somebody's current state in their life?? if you were honest with yourself... you would probably.. not admittedly, but probably be thinking "i don't even care about them in general. who are they to me?" truth is they are who you choose them to be. do you want them to be somebody? do you want to give their life meaning in relevance to yours? or do you want to keep them as a nobody? and potentially miss bringing and impact or receiving an impact on your own life? switchfoot put it best when they said to [stop chasing] "empty conversations filled with empty words".

emotionless suicide

people think of the word suicide and get scared, worried, paranoid maybe. granted, it is a scary thing. the physical death itself is scary, not unheard of, but certainly dare not be talked about. maybe i'll talk about that at another time but i wanted to write about something and ACCUSE YOU of something that you've probably dealt with in the past or maybe recently. why on earth would you commit emotionless suicide? okay maybe you don't know it by that term. emotionless - without emotion. suicide - killing ones self. emotionless suicide - killing ones emotion without even feeling it. lose you yet? stay with me. how often do we give up that vacation we want to make some more money? how often do we want something SO badly but put everything else before that? how often do we ignore the people that are closest to us because we are too busy concerned with ourselves? how often do you shed light on the fact that school.work.repeat is NOT supposed to be the story of your lives. and no, getting drunk every now and then doesn't put an end to the problem either, probably just makes it worse.

HOW ARE WE OKAY WITH THIS? how does a world continue to move despite the fact that it is missing direction? a car that is running on E, driving further and further from the gas station. that is who we are. we think it is going to be okay but unless we stop and do something about it, it is NOT. what are we supposed to do you ask? STOP LIVING BY JUST "GETTING BY". start living with the realization that your life is worth SO MUCH MORE than you know - stop being annoying, stop being mediocre, stop complaining, stop watching. start asking, start wondering, start acting and please stop destroying yourself with worthless motions and meaningless days.