addicted to pain.

i think it is safe to say that we are all addicted to something. when you are addicted, you are hooked, you become dependent. im addicted to my blackberry. thats why they call it a crackberry. if you dont get the joke, then we will talk later. people are addicted to smoking, to alcohol but also to talking, and to money, and working, and lust, and cars, and buying and buying, and food, and technology, and so many other things. what are YOU addicted to? tell me. you are a slave. so am i.. we are slaves to ourselves, we have captured ourselves in some type of real-world phenomena where we are proclaimed free but still choose to live as slaves. an addict is a slave to the addiction. one thing that i have been noticing that we are addicted to in some way shape or form is pain. yea, thats what i thought - what an odd addiction. here is what we are missing - addictions are not always enjoyable.

what kind of pain are you addicted to? are you holding onto a grudge? are you waiting to heal a broken relationship? are you suffering from a broken heart? did you break a heart? are you crying over a promotion at work? did you fail a class? did you get a traffic ticket? did you do something in the last 24 hours you regretted? why do you LET these things take a hold of you? why do you LET these things destroy you, bring PAIN into your life? i understand everyone deals with things a little differently but the fact of the matter is this - you hurt because you want to, sometimes because you need to. BUT! you forget to take the other side of things. in EVERYTHING there is a lesson to be learned, and something to be thankful for.

why are we so addicted to being mad at ourselves, other people, or our circumstances? when life is on a downward spiral, enjoy the ride. when it is at a standstill, catch your breath. when it is going uphill, get ready for what is next. sorry for the roller coaster metaphor, it just fit.. plus i just went to 6 flags. and when life seems to be just going steady.. KNOW that there is something coming up. smile around each turn, throw your hands up because you really can't predict life.. no matter how hard you try. but one thing you can know?... you'll be ok.