re-post.

so i realize that some of my posts might seem like reposts, this might be the first "re-post". a re-post is defined as a reoccurring thought that has found its way to the surface of my mind, where it lingers and grows more and more until i can't contain it anymore and need to get it on paper. i've been doing that more, so my system is clear. thing is, the importance of a re-post shouldn't be underplayed. i don't liek doing it BUT.. if i do, it has got to mean something. and obviously it will not be the same EXACT thing, but it is a re-structuring of the thought or an "addendum" you might say. who knows? after all this, this might not turn out to be a re-post afterall. but at least now you know what a re-post is. i've been thinking and pondering the entire idea of doing. ok there are a few different sects of people here. some of you just don't care. which is.. well, not okay.. but maybe that'll change - or maybe not. i hope so though, cause that'd make a huge world of change. anyway, the second group of people are the people who want to see something happen. and that is HUGE! that's great that we want to see change, and be part of the change, and inflict change and just watch things turn out right and be good. this is actually the group of people who come up with ways to live differently. live for others more. its the group with all the ideas, and a crazy amount of structre. it is where all the thought gets poured into and the messages get taught and spread to other people about how to live a more fruitful and meaningful life. sounds attractive doesn't it? it is, trust me. i've been there for most of my life. i'm moving on up though. to the third group. well, i want to. i find how hard it is to be there, and why so few people are. so the second group were people who wanted to see change happen. the third group is the one that MAKES it happen. we have everything and anything at our disposal. we have the opportunity to either chngange a community, a county, a state..... no no, too big right? ok that's fine. but i dare you to challenge me on the fact that we have an opportunity EVERYDAY to change at least one life.

my main point is that i think that while talking about it and planning things are good, why don't we just DO things? every day - why don't we just live out what we talk about? take a few minutes real quick and imagine this.. really imagine.. place yourself in a world like this - you are walking down the street and say hello to your neighbor, or a random person - and start talking and get intoa conversation. you say your goodbyes and go into work. you make an INTENTIONAL effort to reach out to someone when no one else will. You admit your flaws while accepting theirs. i think we spend too much time planning. why not just do? what in us stifles us from realizing how much we have to offer? how much we have to give? why do we shy away from situations instead of making the most of them? i think you would be different, along with those around you if you embraced every opportunity that surrounded you. there are so many so don't give me crap excuses about how there are none. Look around - what do you see? i see a sea of lost faces, waiting to be listened to. fascinating fact. try it out.. 1000000+ people in this world right? every single one has their own story.

just try it. see what happens. see what/who changes. SEEK AND YOU WILL FIND. its about being real. and knowing that we are here to help each other. no exceptions, sorry.

free writing. part I

as i sit here and sing a few songs i'm tempted, although i do not want to be.. and although i don't want to think about it.. to wonder, ponder, and ask the question.. what if there is something more? i don't know what it is. i don't know what else it could be because the conclusion that i have come to is that this. is. EVERYTHING. and so if there is something more, it can't be anything out of my control. it has to be in my control. what if we have become so confused and disillusioned by what we are SUPPOSED to do? what if we are finally fighting over weighty concepts and important decisions? what if we are finally planning out our strategy? what happens when we actually return to our knees? maybe this something more is the something that is next. what would it look like if you finally realize that all the little puzzle pieces in your life were building up to this one place in our lives.......

oh and check this. "our" entire lives we have been losing patience and wondering what would happen if this could change. what would happen if people focused? what would happen if people stopped being hypocrites and actually inflicting change? this is never going to change. it will never happen until we take it into our own hands. lets go somewhere else maybe its different, nope just the same. do we not realize? THIS IS IT. THIS IS OUR DREAM, COMING UNVEILED. how dare we even begin to think this is not happening, how could we possibly believe this is not reality? this is real!! we have talked too long, its finally time to act.

did you follow all that? its for a certain few. maybe not for you.

i'm better than you.

that is the attitude we take on a lot of times whether we realize it or not. before you deny it, take some time to think about that. don't we think we are better than some people in a few places? once in a while? yea, and if you deny it you are lying. but i don't mean to insult - hear me out. i am guilty of this as well. take a trip down memory lane with me to high school. remeber how we were with the same group of people for 6/9 periods sometimes? there is certainly a time when you took time out of whatever you had to do to talk to a friend or someone in need that had to get something off their chest. there is a time i guarantee it that you sat down and all you were asked to do, or even had to do was listen. nothing else. what an unselfish act. listening to the problems of another person. it seems to relevant and obvious and second nature doesn't it? why have we put this behind us? why don't we do it as much anymore? why has our life all of a sudden spun out of control into something that we can't explain. how often do we take time out now to talk to our neighbor? to see what they are thinking, to ask how life is going? how often do we SACRIFICE our time to make others feel less insignificant? that their problems actually matter? why can't we love like we used to. and if you didn't used to, why can't you try? have our lives become so wrapped up in ourselves and our spouses/significant others or circle of friends that we have come to disregard those around us? there are people slowly dying on the inside and just desperately seeking for a listening ear. be silent, just listen for a change. don't say a word. sometimes the quietest conversations can have the most lasting effects. imagine saying nothing at all and changing a life. DO YOU DARE step into the life of another? or are you saving that task for someone else, because you are simply better and have "other things" to take care of? well guess what? you are not fooling anybody. stop acting and start living, loving, caring - sound corny? maybe - but try it out. and then get back to me. DELVE DEEPER THAN "HOW ARE YOU". DEMAND AN ANSWER.

to put others before ourselves. wow what a concept. where have i heard that before?...