you know Judas?

You know, this is gonna be a weird parallel and it may have hit some of you already, perhaps I'm just slow.. I was reading the story of Jesus' betrayal in the gospels. Basically, Jesus had these 12 disciples that were basically His best friends. One of them, Judas Iscariot, during the time that they knew the Jews were looking to crucify Him, Judas told the soldiers that for 30 shekels of silver. He was planning to do this for a while, but all throughout this.. Jesus knew, He even called it out.. He said "One of you shall betray me..." Ok if I were in His shoes I'd stop it right there.. but i guess thats why I'm not. Ok so Judas handed Jesus, one of his beloved friends.. one of his BEST friends, over to be KILLED. WHAT? after all that Jesus had done for him and showed him and promised him? yea, pretty screwed up I know.. here is the kicker.. I.. and you.. yea, YOU... and me.. WE are Judas. We take those 30 shekels of silver every day. We kick sand in His mouth and turn Him over time and time again. But the weird part is that the story seems to be set on some kind of a rewind.. because it happens over and over and over.. and over. When we live for ourselves, when we are selfish, when we withhold love, when we laugh instead of help.. when we ignore instead of answer, when we tear down instead of building up.. we are taking the money. Who would've thought? We have something in common with good ol' Judas after all. Ready to press "stop" on this looping story yet?

after all this searching

after all this searching, we're sure to find something big right? i mean its a search we are all on. I'm not gonna delve into what each person is searching for cause hey that can be as numerous as the stars themselves.. but honestly now, what are we looking for? its gotta be something right? i mean we work hard everyday (except the days we dont..) but we are searching.. or how about PURSUING.. something. ah, yea.. the pursuit.. a little more relatable perhaps? either way you look at it, its still a journey that you are on.. this is a books worth of an idea right here but how do we find ourselves pushing and pursuing things? what are those things? do they matter? for a minute? for a month? for your life? for another's? for life..?

the ripple effect

yea, this is home.. an i'm finally where i belong.. where i belong "switchfoot-this is home"

yea i've been thinking a lot about the eternal perspective and how one thing we do here resonates into all of history almost. it could be something as small as buying another persona cup of coffee or just being there for someone when they need it the most but as the world continues to change i've noticed a shift into individualism more and more.. the world says all we need to care about is ourselves. every man for himself.. but this is why things are getting the way they are. do you notice the world moving towards improvement? with all our greatness and power and technology and knowledge. do you see something awesome happening? i don't. why are we getting less civilized almost when the opposite should be happening? I really think its disillusionment. we are so consumed by the idea that the world might just revolve around us that we wear blinders to the things that are happening around us, the people around us. WHY SHOULD WE CARE? cause these people are our brothers, our sisters. other human beings.. we should care because as much as we may not like to think about it, we are all connected someway, somehow.. and if we could help one other person out just by inconveniencing  ourself just a little bit.. then why the hell not?